The year is 2017 and I have a burnout. I do not know what is happening to me, but burnout came and I feel empty.

I felt like I was a living dead in a second. As if I was no longer mentally present – there was only one body walking around doing things. I had lost myself, there was no Robin anymore. I was so empty, completely exhausted, no feelings, I felt nothing anymore. It took a while before thoughts of inadequacy and that I had done everything i can on this earth began to creep in. I had simply given everything I had to give. After a time when everything was empty, there was a wave of emotions, a shock to the body and mind. I felt bad, had dark thoughts and wanted to isolate myself from my surroundings. I did not know what was happening to me, I could not talk to anyone and I could not think that I had a burnout. I got professional help but it was hard for me to digest that I needed help. It took a toll on my ego at the time – I can not need help from a therapist! I received the help and that was the best I could do. It really was an eye opener for me! After a few sessions, I realized that I had got a burnout and was completely exhausted physically and mentally. The reason to this was that I never listened to myself and my mind, I did things that others thought you should do. I did not live MY life but lived as others said I should do. I had people around me who took all my energy but gave nothing to me. I had simply given everything for others and left myself in emptiness, without energy and without strength. With therapy, I realized how it all started: things I went through and swept under the rug. Everything that was hidden under the carpet came over me when I could no longer keep everything under it. It was the body that told me that now you have so many things you need to process, you need to stop and grab all these “monsters” that have been lying under the carpet all these years. I am a man at the age of 28, I study and I have a permanent job. I had a burnout.

A burnout can come to anyone and at any time! If this is happening to you or has already happened to you, then you are not the only one who has gone through this. To avoid a burnout, or to avoid history repeating itself, I want you to listen to yourself and feel how you feel. Listen to your body and mind. I wish no one needed to feel what I felt. With my story, I want to help others avoid a burnout or move on after having a burnout. Take care of yourselves and listen to yourselves!

I’m happy and nervous that I started this blog for you. I am completely new to the blog world and trying to learn more about it. I will write about myself, what I have been through and struggled with. The path from what I believe was the bottom for me – to the person I am today. I want to motivate and help others to become the best version of themselves. I want to show that if I can do it, so can you! You can become a better version of yourself!

Who am I? My name is Robin and I live in Vaasa, Ostrobothnia. I have a degree in business administration and I am interested in personal development. At the moment I am studying to be a mental coach and hope to be able to coach others when I finish my education. The reason I chose to start blogging and founding this site was because I went through a personal burnout and did not feel well. I lost my identity and myself. Still picked me up from the bottom and now wants to share with others that you can come back stronger than before. I became interested in understanding how the body and the mind work after my burnout. Now I develop myself and my thoughts daily to become the best version of myself – You can do that too.

My blog journey begins here and I hope you want to join me on this journey!
If you have any questions, just get in touch.

Thank you for me today!

I graduated from high school and did military service. I play hockey and work. My dream is to play hockey in Stockholm for Hammarby. I am in a stage of life where I have the opportunity to fulfill my dream and just drive on.

I go down to Stockholm and train with Bajen Fans Hockey and feel how much I want to move to Stockholm and do what I love most, for the club in my heart. I will come home to Vaasa again, and start planning a move to Stockholm. While I was planning how to solve the move, I also told others that I wanted to move. People around me did not have positive things to say about my idea. Things that were said to me: “Do not be ridiculous. how are you going to cope? ”,“ Are you completely sure now? ”,“ What are you going to do there alone? ”. The result when I listened to what others thought, was that I moved to Umeå so as not to be left alone. I do not dare to follow my dream because I am told that my dream is ridiculous and that I will not succeed. I make choices I do not want to make so as not to look bad with the people closest to me. It did not turn out as I had imagined in Umeå, I really did not feel well. It was not MY dream but someone else’s dream I was trying to live. Of course I became an adventure richer, but it was not what I wanted and therefore I could not fully enjoy my time in Umeå. I was only there because I did not dare to live my dream, and for all the negative things that were said about my dream took over. No one supported my dream or said anything positive. It is better to be quiet than to despise the dreams of others.

The decision I made then was a major setback in my life. The feeling of inadequacy and that my dream was ridiculous and made up, I swept under the rug. This was a feeling that built up for the future burnout. I have managed to distance myself from people who do not add anything to my life – my circle is more positive today than before.

There are people who do not dream or do nothing to achieve their own dreams, who just push down the people who do things to achieve their dreams. Learn not to be influenced by their negative comments. Your job is not to live the dreams of others or to be valued by people who do nothing to achieve theirs. Dream big! It is your dream and your life that you will live!